Pretty well all survivors of mind control and ritual abuse suffer from post traumatic stress disorder (PTSD), the same disorder that war veterans frequently have, although theirs has been caused by several years of war trauma whereas yours were caused by a lifetime of terror. The first diagnostic criterion for whether you have PTSD requires that you have been exposed to a traumatic event in which you experienced, witnessed, or were confronted with an event or events that involved actual or threatened death or serious injury, or a threat to the physical integrity of yourself or others. I cannot imagine a survivor of mind control or ritual abuse who has not had such an experience, whether or not they have a clear memory of it.