ABSTRACT

This chapter is an account of the process of my own seduction. This is a selfreflective narrative, a wrenching dialogue with myself, based on my encounter with development as a young student aspiring to join the ranks of educated elites and the well-to-do. However, my objective here is not to write my own personal biography; this is rather a post-mortem of the body of development by a colonized mind, designed to serve as a research method. Even though such a methodology is uncommon in academic research, it is valuable in exposing the experience of most elites-whether self-made like myself or those born and raised in elite families. This personal narrative reveals how and why the discourse of development, with the help of foreign aid, solidifies the colonial mindset in the post-imperial world, crafting cultural values, thinking, behaviour, and actions. This is how, under the guise of development, the culture of imperialism is methodically reproduced in order to maintain continued Western dominance over the myriad of nation-states which have emerged since the downfall of the formal colonial-imperial order. As

Edward Said (1993:25), describing the lingering legacy of imperialism, points out: ‘Westerners may have physically left their old colonies in Africa and Asia, but they retained them not only as markets but also as locales on the ideological map over which they continued to rule morally and intellectually.’